hello people. im back to blog again. well. today's post's a wee bit different. instead of blogging about our class, dance, netball, sports leaders and the daily stuffs, here's a story that alexandrew wrote. =)
The story of two guys in love with two best friends.
Part 1
The rain fell.As rain always fell.Somehow though it seemed different.The drops slid off his skin differently.As if taking a moment,pausing to sigh,then departing.
"Rain absolve me of sin...Lightning baptize me in light...Death cremate me in fire..."
He laughed.
"Somehow that seems right doesnt it Jared?"
He turned to see tears running down Jared's face.
"Nothing...Nothing seems right...All that was ever right...Is now no longer within my reach..."
David pulled himself a little closer,as if to whisper.In a low voice he said,
"Does that flame still remain?Or has the void shattered?"
Jared laugh.Yet it was cold.A laugh of cold reasons.
"The void holds.But can one not revel in the sting of tears as well as the cleansing of rain?"
David turned away.Staring out to sea.
"You become more and more like the people I fear we will eventually turn into.But knowing you,this phase will pass.But the scars will ever remind.Not on flesh.Not the wounds that drew blood.This scars arent shown.They will serve a better reminder than that carved on our skin."
Jared stared at his hands,turning his palms over and over again.
"On the soul David...On the soul...Where else will they forever remain etched...Carved on stone they will fade...Burnt onto skin it will turn to dust...No...These scars will remain on our souls...Nowhere else..."
"Is that anger speaking Jared?Or just pure reason?"
"Anger remains outside my capacity to feel.I learnt well from you.Sometimes I think that I am no longer capable of feeling emotions."
David rose.Grabbbing both their bags he sighed.
"Just for a few more years...Just for these years...Then maybe we will forget...As memories fade...As men die..."
He tossed Jared his bag.
"Lets go...Its getting late."
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Ok here I go...Put up that mask David...Put it up firm...
He walked along the path.Quiet,silent,ready to face another day.He reached school with not a sound.
So far so good...I hope I wont have to use this facade too soon...
As if in answer to his question Joan and Renee walked up.They said almost in unison,
"Hi David!"
Of all the times
"Hi guys..Ohh I mean girls.."
"David!Do we look like guys to you?"
He laughed.
"No no you look just fine.My mistake."
They chuckled.
"Ohh well we better sit down."
"Yah..I gotta go to the bathroom for a minute.I'll come round later.."
He walked away not waiting to hear their answers.Reaching the bathroom the familiar smell of mens cologne greeted him.Suprisingly there was no one.
Turning on one of the taps he scooped some of the running water and ran in through his face.Staring into the mirror he looked for signs of weariness.
Seems just fine...Well here I go...God why do I love her?
He didnt realise he had spoke the last words aloud.
"Love who David?"
He turned to find Nathan alongside one of the cubicles.
"No one."
"Yah right...Ohh stop admiring yourself in the mirror.You look the same for pete's sake..Besides which girl in their right mind who look at you?"
David laughed.
"Well for one those who ARE in their right minds."
With that they bickered all the way to the assembly line.
You have no idea Nathan...You have no idea...
Part 2 Of Part 1
So then the heart bleeds...No hand may heal...No surgeon may restore...What is already lost...Yet still it beats...Rythimic thumping of its works...As if trying,to die in martyred fashion...
His pen moved.Pouring words,feelings,emotions,onto paper.Binding it in a prison of mortal capacity.In a sense it held him aloft through all the pain.But still he allowed himself to feel part of it.Just to remember he still breathed.
"David.Have you actually done your work?"
Ms Keblem's voice pushed through his thoughts.Shoving the paper beneath the piles of homework on his desk he prostrated his work in the air.
"Actually I have."
She smirked.
"Glad to see you still reside in this world.Now stop your scribbling of whatever that was and pay attention."
He grinned.As if trying to whisper he said,
"Well how much do I have to pay?"
Ms Keblem turned around.
"What was that I heard you say?"
He put on an innocent face.
"Why nothing."
Off to his right he could almost feel Joseph formulate his one of a kind replies.
"As always we conclude that David is lame."
The class laughed.
I can always trust him to have an answer...Thank god for him...I feel bad for using his fickle mind...No I dont...
"And was your thoughts asked for Joseph?"
"Oh no oh no!I didnt speak that aloud did I?
The class erupted with laughter.Replies came from one corner to another.David fueled the flame with some remarks then withdrew.He glanced off to his left.Well there she was.Just a few seats away.Yet so far,distant,out of reach.He laughed inside.
Atleast she smiles..
He drew himself back inwards.To the times long past.Back to memories that were not his own,but still were a part of him...
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Jared looked out of the room.She was just a class away.Practically ten steps from the door.But that distance seemed to stretch forever long.Each time he passed her the moments seemed to linger.His heart failed to beat.And each time he came out of that moment he did so panting for breath,though he never let it show.
Life has to go on...I pray the Lord give me strength...
He turned his attention back to the lesson.Math,well he used to like math.Until the complex equations and formulaes constantly drove him to derive solutions to questions he wished he never asked.He looked out the window one more time.
If those times where we laughed and smiled together were true...I pray Lord that you let them fill me life again...Should they not be...Then let her find happiness in whatever she seeks...
He sighed turning his thoughts to the matters on hands.
Part 1 Of Part 2
"So where you wanna go?"
He looked across the canteen.Their eyes met just for that second.Then she looked away.He sighed.
"How bout the beach?"
Jared grabbed his bag.
"Well that settles it then.Lets go.I'm cant bear spending another moment here."
They trudged silently.Each lost in his own thoughts.Then David smiled.
"Have you ever wondered why the two people we love,are best friends.Seems God does have a way of lessening the pain.He gave me you to share it with.And you,me."
Jared laughed.
"You and your ideas David.Well maybe you're right.I dont know how hard it would have been going through it all alone.Atleast you're here to be the stupid goofball you should be."
He saw that look David got whenever he came up with a stupid idea.
"Sing with me...Sick and tired of this world,there's no more air,trippin over myself,goin no where,waitin,suffocatin,no direction,I took a dive and..."
Jared grinned like a goof.
"On the way down I saw you and you saved me from myself...And I wont forget the way you loved me..On the way down I almost fell right through,but I held on to you..."
"Well that atleast applies to you Jared...You had her...I never even got a chance..."
They continued walking.The clouds above brewed mixed sentiments.Patches of the azure sky were still visible.Though the grey mood of the clouds enveloped most of it.
"But then again..Having her in my life for those few minutes,seconds,hours,days,hurts me more..Because I know it had a chance of being...But will never be again.."
"Then I ask you...Does the fact that it could have been hurt more than the fact it could never be?But then again as you say,it depends on the situation,and who experiences it...For most it fades or is stored in the list of "failures",but for us it stays..Different people then have different experiences and visualisations..."
They reached the beach.David felt a little undecided.
"I think we should settle over on the other side...Just in case somebody comes along."
Who would that someone be David?You always have a knack for this type of things.
They made their way to the other end of the beach.Where the last visible rock was.Settling,David sighed.
"The pounding of the waves against the shore,sounds as if the world is breathing.Slow,rasped breathing,never changing,except in due time,even that,unregistered for man."
They sat silent.Not a sound came from their lips.Lost in silent contemplation.Both unsure what to do.Minutes lingered long.David uttered almost unheard words.They escaped his lips in hushed whisper.
"I sink beneath the surface of her heart.Dying a thousand deaths of beauty and lies.Martyred for her pleasure.Buried 'neath all my guises.For which I tried to disasuade my heart,from longing hers in turn."
Jared replied,his answer coming from all those times he sat thinking about what could heal,the wounds that dug so deep.
"We dont chose when,where,how,and who.Love makes that choice for us.And often his choice,is the last one we would make.But nonetheless he has chosen.And it is he who rules our hearts.Not our minds,nor our desires."
David glanced off to his left,just in curiousity.As always he proved himself right.There she as.Or more correctly put.There they were.He laughed.
"The irony.Look off to your left.This is turning out to be one of the most screwed up days I've ever had."
Jared's heart ceased to beat,just for those few seconds,then continued as if nothing had happened.
"Well you were right.Someone did come along.Just not someone we expected."
David smirked.
"Well I wish I wasnt right.Should we leave?"
Jared shook his head.
"We'll stay.Let them go first.It will be easier that way.We wont have to pretend we dont see them.And they us..."
He looked in their direction just once more.She was smiling.He was glad.
Well Jared she's not yours...And she never will be...Sometimes I wish I could just forget...
well. i dont actually think this story has an ending, yet. lol.